TOM VAUGHAN inspiration

About the poet

Tom Vaughan is a former British diplomat who has served in the Middle East, Africa, and the US, and whose career has also included experience of conflict zones such as Afghanistan and the Balkans. He continues to work on international affairs.

Tom worked as a journalist before graduating from Exeter University and completing post-graduate studies at Oxford. His novel, No Second Prize, based on his experience in post-colonial Zimbabwe, was published by Andre Deutsch in 1993.

Tom’s poems have been published in several magazines and anthologies. One of his poems, Proposal, first published in Orbis, was included in the BBC series/anthology Essential Poems (to Fall in Love with). Tom is a member of the Original Poets of Clapham Stanza Poetry Group, and four of his poems were included in their 2018 anthology Uncommon. Tom’s poem Beltway Blues, from his Envoy collection, was included in the Songs of Love and Loss cycle by painist/composer Sir Stephen Hough, premiered in a Wigmore Hall concert on 2 January 2023, sung by Nicky Spence.

In the words of Helena Nelson of the HappenStance Press, which published a short selection of his poetry in 2010 and a longer collection – Envoy – in 2013, Tom’s poems demonstrate that ‘elegant formalism and contemporary style can still go hand in hand’.

HappenStance Sampler

HappenStance Sampler

The Mower

I cut the grass again today.

It took three hours, but now I know

that man was made his lawn to mow.

 

It’s smooth enough to play croquet.

The shorn blades smell of long ago.

I cut the grass again today.

 

I’m basking in the afterglow.

I sit and sip a beer, although

under my feet it starts to grow.

Envoy

The poems in Envoy reflect Tom’s experience overseas, commenting (often with barbed wit) on people, places and the moral ambiguities of diplomatic life. His deepest concern is with the guilt carried by those whose decisions—however much they may or may not be justified—mean the death and injury of others. But the only certainty for all of us, as he concludes in Via Dolorosa, is that ‘suffering / is in the end / all we can share’.

Although hard copies of Envoy are sold out, you can buy and download an e-copy below.

Tom Vaughn Envoy

Via Dolorosa

The light insists

there’s something here

the guidebooks can’t

explain, and then

 

illuminates 

the stones’ idea

that maybe nothing

happened but

 

their task’s to bear

what ends in prayer

or protest that

the certainty

 

of suffering

is in the end

all we can share.

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Some Poems of Tom Vaughan

Beltway Blues

Beyond the Beltway

there must be

a better life

for you and me.

 

We’ll slip the Net

and go to ground

where no e-mail

can track us down –

 

no telephones,

no televisions,

no talking heads,

no politicians.

 

Off-stage, off-screen,

off-line – together

we’ll find ourselves,

we’ll find each other.

 

You know the life

I have in mind,

the real thing

not the virtual kind –

 

I’ll light the fire,

we’ll watch the flames

consume the past,

sure what remains

 

is older, deeper,

firmer . . .  

               Strange

how every time

we talk this way

 

we heave a sigh

and here we stay.

Published in HappenStance Envoy, 2013

Happiness

It’s easy to forget they’d fought a war:

his father drowned, half-brother bayoneted;

her kilted sibling captured at Dunkirk,

locked up for five long years. But yes they met

 

in uniform, lost half their friends, before

the normal world re-started when they wed:

mortgage; children; grinding office work –

all I suppose they wanted when they set

 

out as a couple.  We must have been a shock:

busting their rulebook; scornful of sacrifice;

mocking their past and their belief in ‘progress’;

 

too young, too smashed, too angry to unlock

their silence, or to understand the price

they’d paid for what they’d still call happiness.

 

First published in Dream Catcher 33, July 2016

Fire

In front of the fire after dinner

we talk of the friends who have died

not saying, but of course thinking,

why them, but not us, when we’ve lied

 

and we’ve failed and betrayed and we’ve squandered

just as much as the shadows we mourn

while we sit by the fire in the winter

while the fire keeps the two of us warm.

 

Maybe when we wake a few embers

will still glow in the ashen grate

and we’ll kindle new flames till the evening

the darkness to illustrate.

 

Published Snakeskin 302, December 2022

Brick by Brick

I took a brick and carried it

to where before there had been air,

and laid it carefully to fill

an emptiness I could repair.

 

some bricks are made for houses

some bricks are made for walls

but none are made to mark the place

where more than evening falls

 

That was the first – it’s now among

so many others I can’t be sure

which one it is, and why I built

here, not elsewhere.

 

some bricks are made for houses

some bricks are made for walls

but none are made to mark the place

which beckons but appals

 

Though it seems some spaces can’t be filled

however many bricks we pile

upon each other, and however

well we learn to shrug, and smile.

 

some bricks are made for houses

some bricks are made for walls

but none are made to mark the place

where all our building stalls

 

Published Poetry Review Salzburg No 37, Summer 2021

 

USP

If everybody has

a USP, what’s mine?

Is non-possession of a talent

a crime?

 

If I’m part of the crowd predestined to be

born with no great gift

is there a particular reason for

Fate’s thrift? –

 

since otherwise no one would rise   

above a bland baseline       

and no lacklustre horde would backdrop the stars       

who shine . . . 

 

Still there ought to be a prize

for the necessary many

whose qualities are minimal

if any

 

but who plod on as losers so

the few can upwards pop

relying on the rest of us 

to flop –

 

so will they one day condescend

to look us in the face

and thank us for their happy state

of grace?

 

Published Lighten Up Online 59, September 2022

 

 

 

 

Proposal

Let’s fall in love –

in our mid-thirties

it’s not only

where the hurt is.

 

I won’t get smashed up

should you go

away for weekends –

we both know

 

no two people

can be completely

all-sufficient.

But twice weekly

 

we’ll dine together,

split the bill,

admire each other’s

wit.  We will

 

be splendid lovers,

slow, well-trained,

tactful, gracefully

unrestrained.

 

You’ll keep your flat

and I’ll keep mine –

our bank accounts

shall not entwine.

 

We’ll make the whole thing

hard and bright.

We’ll call it love –

we may be right.

 

Original version published in Orbis 108/109, 1998

Included in anthology ‘101 Poems That Could Save Your Life;, ed Daisy Goodwin, HarperCollins 1999.

Included in anthology ‘Essential Poems (To Fall  In Love With)’, ed Daisy Goodwin, HarperCollins 2003 (in arrangement with BBC, and read on subsequent BBC by Samuel West.

Odd

When you think of it, if God exists, it’s odd –

if this is the only place in the universe

he set up to be able to converse

with conscious creatures (aka our awkward squad) –

 

if he focused his main effort on a tiny planet

in a minor galaxy; if his son were born

on the edge of an empire, in an unremarkable town

under-equipped to host the infinite –

 

if you need a microscope to spot his hand

at work in history, always at the edge of vision

where things get blurred, where the Good Samaritan

 

fulfils his humble, unreported mission

on an unpaved road in a distant, backward land,

not knowing the heavens hang on his heart’s decision . . .

 

Published HQ Poetry Magazine 58, March 2022

Afterwards

Afterwards, I’ll shake the hand

of total strangers in the street

as though they were my oldest friend

and as and when that friend I’ll meet

 

we’ll stroll across Green Park towards

Crown Passage’s Il Vicolo

to dip our bread in olive oil

and drink wine till our faces glow

 

and talk of this and maybe that

as if we had all day to kill

then we’ll argue who should pay, aware

we’ll agree at last to split the bill

 

and when we say goodbye, we’ll know

how rare and wonderful it was

to be together, even though

neither will say so. Why? Because 

 

why even hint the day might come

when public or private fresh disaster 

prevents we two from sitting there

to share a salad and a pasta?

 

Published in Snakeskin 276, September 2020. Also in The Spectator, 10 October 2020.

Reprinted in Robin Helweg-Larsen’s 20 December 2021 blog (https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/5769613.Robin_Helweg_Larsen/blog)